Learning about Love
I had a realization this weekend, which seemed blindingly obvious once I got there, but it took a while. While I believe that God loves me, I don't really trust Him to keep loving me. I hope that He will. I know, intellectually, that He will. But on a practical, gut-level, I don't fully trust it. I want a backup plan. That doubt spills over into a lot of other areas of my life -- if I don't trust God to love me unconditionally and always, how would I trust other people to love me when I don't feel like I'm earning it? Dave, by the grace of God, ended up preaching a sermon on Sunday that spoke to the exact things that I was thinking about, and reminded us that the gift of the Holy Spirit is an ongoing evidence of God's faithful love to us. I am also reminded of God's faithful love, that He knows me and loves me , by small signs in my every day life. ...for example, finding a bubble tea shop the very day after I told Jason how much I wanted