Feelings. Goodbyes. God's Sovereignty.
It was easier, the first time, to move to China. I had just graduated and didn't really feel like I had a home anywhere particular. It was easier, in August, riding around the country with a few other ELIC people, to be excited. But now I'm making doctor's appointments, and sitting through congregational meetings thinking I won't be here when they elect their first elders , and thinking about wrapping up my lease and the logistics of where my stuff goes and how it gets there while I'm busy going to the other side of the world. Right now, my feelings suck. (Also, the highly illogical nature of feelings makes me insane . So there I was, right, thinking about how much I'm sad to leave Btown and BOOM, my feelings were like, "Also this is a good time to miss Aliquippa. Why on earth haven't you moved there ?" At which point my brain sort of went, "Goodbye, this makes no sense, see you later.") On the bright(ish?) side, or at l